10/23/2006
i need a guys perspective on this. is it me.. or is it me being skeptical? ugh. it just bugged me so much. troubling me. disturbing me. no peace of mind. i coulnt even shake it off as i usually could. just it's bigger than.. expected? snowballing, i guess.

well, what does she expect me to do? so, i made a mistake by vocalising it. oh sure.. blame ME. wow. this is great isnt it? i aint perfect, i make mistakes. SO?! like you dont. ugh. then again, i guess she has every right not to accept my apology. big newsflash? i dont like you! but. i gotta forgive you! so? why cant you do the same? it's super annoying lor. make it seem like everyone's with you. rrright. please. stop talking crap. we all know who's lyin and who's not in this matter.
but. say what you must, i dont really care. i just wish the hols would come faster. i hate this...why pretend when it's not true? why live in denial?

there's big news. but.. since CERTAIN people are gonna view my bloggie, i'll shutup. when it's announced on wed, you'll know. heh. man, take over my space, do my job, say what i was going to,steal my ideas, and whatever crap that I do. it's MY job. NOT yours! get that into your head and stop thinking i'm joking with you. cuz i'm not. take me seriously, luh.

well, talkin about being taken seriously, i'm tired of being the crazy one. i wanna extend other qualities a student councillor in functions should have. being influential, outgoing, creative, friendly, calm, less hot headed...and uh. what else? darnit. i dont know. but well. yea. listen up. i wanna be taken seriously. i wont be as crazy as before. cos i'm tired of repeating myself cos people think i'm joking when i'm really NOT. well, there you have it. i said it. i'll tryta keep my word. so, yeah.

strangely, i like my sister now. (= i dont know why. misunderstood, i guess. as usual. man, miscommunications stink. a lot. obviously lorr. she's super duper uber nice if you're just.. nice to her, and super duper uber not nice when you're just a lil not nice to her. just that i've seen the other side of her. and i like it. =DD

seriously, i find it super duper uber hard to believe what she said. it's just. unbelievable. but i guess i should play along, huh? or maybe i should do my research. i guess i should. so well. i'ma go bet who'll win for ANTM. america's next top model. do'uh.